Dad’s Dead… Now What?

Name: Dad’s Dead… Now What?
Author: Tiffany Charbonneau

Beyond the Wreckage

“There were no files available on how to react when a monster dies. I have many files surviving, hiding, but grieving… no directory found.”

For the ones whohave been keeping their shit together so long they forgot what falling apart feels like.

For the ones whodidn’t want to be here anymore.

I wrote this for you.
I wrote this for me.

Turns out we’re the same person.

“The pain didn’t kill me. The story I told about the pain almost did.”

Chapter 27 · The Rock

When the man who spent decades breaking her finally died, everyone reached for the same soft words. None of them fit.

What came next wasn’t grief. It was a reckoning she had no language for — and no idea how to survive.

Soldier. Nurse. Mother. Functioning addict. Then a morphine relapse, detox seizures, another near-death experience, and a flight to Costa Rica for four nights with ayahuasca.

Burden — original ink drawing by Tiffany Charbonneau, part one opening artwork — **Burden** · Part One

“I tried to use his medicine to survive his death, and it almost killed me.”

Chapter 11 · System Crash

This book is the raw live footage of the messy middle, not a finish-line story.

Wild Roots — original ink drawing by Tiffany Charbonneau, part three opening artwork — **Wild Roots** · Part Three

“I don’t know if this will save your life. I know it saved mine. That is enough to start with.”

Letter to My Readers

Her twin flame, Jasmine, kept the light on. Tiffany is not a guru. She felt shattered, broken beyond repair, wounded as fuck. She is living proof that you can crawl out.

Aggressive — original ink drawing by Tiffany Charbonneau, part four opening artwork — **Aggressive** · Part Four

“Healing isn’t just about feeling love; it’s about the violent expulsion of the rage that love finally makes room for.”

Chapter 20 · Wednesday

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Inside the book

Forty-five chapters. Here are eleven.

Loaded Barrel
Radioactive Estate
System Crash
The Black Gates
The Dam Breaks
Victim Face
Forgiveness is Feeling Nothing
Addicted Botfly
The Anatomy of the Dragon
The Basement of My Shadows
I’m Still Here… So Are You

This book is not for everyone! This is not a book that tells you everything is going to be okay. It is a book that shows you someone who was not okay — and is still here today.

This book is for you if

You lost someone who hurt you, and grief showed up anyway
You are the one everybody leans on and nobody checks on
You’ve been told you should be over it by now
You look after everyone else — a nurse, a first responder, a therapist, a caregiver, a partner, a parent — and you’ve asked yourself how much longer you can carry it
You’ve considered plant medicine and want to hear it from someone who actually went — and came home and integrated it
You are an addict, and you keep relapsing and keep blaming yourself
You need proof that someone can love you through your worst days — and still stay

Before you begin

This book contains unfiltered accounts of:

Suicidal ideation and suicide attempts
Addiction and substance use
Childhood abuse
Grief and the death of an abuser
Mental health crisis, dissociation, and trauma
Medical emergencies including seizures and near-death experiences
Explicit language throughout

None of it is dressed up. None of it is resolved neatly. That is the point.

If you are currently in crisis, please reach out before or while you read.

Canada: Suicide Crisis Helpline — call or text 988 (24/7, free, bilingual)

Canada — Veterans, CAF, RCMP and families: VAC Assistance Service — 1-800-268-7708 (24/7, free, no VAC client status required)

Anywhere in the world: findahelpline.com

“I am the hardest person I have ever had to forgive. I’m still working on it. But for the first time in forty-one years, I believe I am worth the effort.”

Chapter 34 · Forgiveness is Feeling Nothing

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If you are currently in crisis, please reach out before or while you read. Canada: Suicide Crisis Helpline, call or text 988 (24/7, free, bilingual). Veterans, CAF members, RCMP and their families: VAC Assistance Service 1-800-268-7708 (24/7, free, no VAC client status required). Anywhere in the world: findahelpline.com

Written by Tiffany Charbonneau, RN, BScN

This book and the trilogy that follows are intended for informational and educational purposes only. The content reflects the author’s personal interpretation of clinical and scientific information and should not be considered professional medical advice. Readers are advised to consult qualified healthcare professionals for personalized advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Nothing in these pages is a substitute for professional medical care.

The opinions and insights shared are informed by the author’s own lived experience, extensive research, and professional background as a registered nurse. The author, Healing Through My Ink Inc., and publisher disclaim any liability for actions taken based on the information contained herein. Readers are responsible for their own decisions and actions regarding their health and well-being. By reading this book, you acknowledge that you understand and agree to these terms.